The recent months have been interesting for me, as so much is falling into place and overall I feel really, really good. Yet, simultaneously, I am still aware of some manifestations that I really want that just are not yet here. Listening to Abraham is one of the wonderful ways I like to come back into alignment, so while working I pulled up YouTube. I like to pick a video already recommended for me in my home feed, as I feel they're all purposeful, placed there by Source, ready and waiting for me. The flow of Abraham's words streamed in and instantly, I began to uplift myself and resonate. Resonate with some of the people speaking their concerns, as I have been there too or am currently going through a synchronously similar concern. Resonate even more strongly with the solutions Abraham presents to each individual, so similar yet sometimes the slightest tweak in verbiage or tone hits home perfectly for that moment in time.
The flow continued to a particular recording where the person asking Abraham was overly focused on what she really wanted...a desire so big it was her "desire of her lifetime". Ding ding ding. Perfectly synchronous. Abraham's solutions and suggestions for this woman brought up a clear image for me coupled with the inspiration to write. Allow my focus to really hone in on that clear image. Thus, another blog post came to be after a recess of writing.
An Inspired Story
Living solo, on my own for the first time, felt exciting and new; however, within the first 24 hours I felt the longing of what I've known, loved, and appreciated all my life- an animal companion. The best kind of roommate in my opinion.
I love both dogs and cats, though I had always labeled myself more of a dog person than cat. Looking back, I realize part of that was the (commonly accepted) belief of being able to train dogs, as well as the belief in my ability to fix dogs' behavior problems....that dogs can and will do exactly what I want, exactly when I want, and exactly how I want. A very ego-centered viewpoint. Cats, I knew, were clear about being their own beings and living in accordance to what they desire, and that very few cats agree to human control in the way that dogs do.
In my quest for adopting a dog, I almost ended up with a cat first. Just before my meeting the dog I was drawn to, my house suddenly had an unwanted presence typical to Baltimore- a rat. As I chose my dog and she chose me, I was also about to receive a free cat that was in need of a home different from the one it was in at the time. Though this new dog of mine had a high prey drive and a bull-headed, stubborn streak, I figured I could easily "fix" her of it. After all, I was a dog behaviorist.
It wasn't long with this new dog - my wonderful Khaleesi - that I felt a strong knowing that I couldn't just "fix this", and that it would be rather unsafe for a cat. Feeling guilt and defeat, I let the owner know that I could no longer take in the cat. It felt like failure...I wasn't living up to a lot of labels I had placed on myself.
Coming that close to having a cat re-awakened the desire for one. Only now, it felt to be impossible with Khaleesi. The desire grew and grew though. It'd increase as I'd visit home and re-connect with the cat I grew up with, as I saw cats on the street or adoption sites that could use a home, and as I met and connected with other people's cats. I really wanted a cat.
A couple of times, I came close to (unconsciously) manifesting one. A temporary roommate brought her cat as they lived on the third floor of my home. I thought that maybe Khaleesi could get used to it in her space. Each limited encounter affirmed my belief that it was impossible. She was too reactive, and I couldn't trust that she wouldn't harm my roommate's cat.
Then, an even better unfolding lined up! A friend found the cutest, tiniest, fluffiest kitten. He knew how much I love animals and brought him over for me. Oh, I wanted this kitten, who stayed with me for a short time (separated from Khaleesi). He was curious, fun, healthy, and sweet. At first, the introduction to Khaleesi held a flicker of dream I desired, and I was briefly filled with hope. And then she gave into her prey drive and tried to nip the kitten...she couldn't understand that this little being could be a potential member of the house. The kitten couldn't stay with me, so my friend kept him and then found him a loving forever home. Though I was grateful that the kitten had a loving home, the fact that it couldn't be with me filled me with sadness and fueled my belief that a cat was impossible for me.
After that unfolding...I let it go. I began to accept that a cat just wouldn't be in my cards while Khaleesi and I shared life together. I surrendered to and accepted "what is", let go of my need to make it happen (and make it happen a certain way), and went back to appreciating more of what-is - which was my bond with Khaleesi. That desire for a cat was tabled for almost two years.
In that time, a lot was happening. Shifting in a positive direction and gaining positive momentum. I was learning about law of attraction and that my alignment with high vibrations empower me to create the life I desire. I was shifting away from focusing on negative thought patterns, away from what no longer served me and away from labeling myself as a dog behaviorist; I knew my purpose - work included - was evolving.
One day, it just happened, by undeniable synchronicity. A little forgotten, adorable kitten crossed my path. Literally, as she darted across the street I was driving on. She stayed still as I approached her and let me scoop her up. Like she knew. On my drive home...I fell in love. She was perfect and precious and now my responsibility. I picked up a few needs for her, to last a few days. I knew she couldn't stay long and that I'd have to find her a home. The Petco employee was struck with awe when he learned I wasn't keeping her. Annoyed, I briefly mentioned that my dog would likely kill her. So confident that he came off as cocky, he told me he could train any dog to get along with cats. Anger and annoyance burned within me, perhaps because I thought that too and was proven incorrect. (Months later, Khaleesi and I happened to pop in the pet store while he was working and he learned she wouldn't shake paws. I had tried and tried and all she would do was sit. He proclaimed he could easily teach her to shake and proceeded to take a treat to show me how it was done. To my ego's delight, Khaleesi would not do anything but sit. I'm happy to say that eventually with patience and the assistance of a friend's dog, Khaleesi now knows how to shake and does so with intense fervor for a treat.)
The exchange I had with the employee stayed with me though. A lot of it was ego driven...for at the time I thought myself to be better than trainers from Petco or Petsmart, knowing that obedience training does not fix all behavior problems. So, if a Petco trainer could teach a dog to accept a cat, then why couldn't I?
As the days turned into weeks of the kitten's stay with us, her quarantined life in the master bathroom expanded to the master bedroom and bathroom. Slowly, we introduced Khaleesi every day, on a leash, briefly. We taught her to enter calmly and that reacting to this kitten was not okay in the slightest. Though it still seemed impossible, I chose to hold on to any glimmer of hope that it would work out. I began to let go of my focus on all the evidence that pointed to the probability of Khaleesi not accepting the kitten. On rare occasions, Khaleesi seemed more curious than holding an intent to hunt. Or the sniff would last longer before a reaction. I spent a lot of time with this kitten, (and named her Panther...) so her scent was always on me, which of course did not go unnoticed by Khaleesi. I feel she also felt my intense, protective energy over this cat. I noticed how responsive Khaleesi was to any correction regarding the kitten, which is not always the case, especially when faced with squirrels or geese. I held onto these hopes.
One magical day, our little kitten moved past Khaleesi and not even the slightest indication of a reaction came from my dog. I was so shocked, I even proceeded to try to get Khaleesi to react. Nothing! So we began to allow Panther to explore the house more and before we knew it, Khalessi and Panther (now Kitty-Kat, another story for another time) could be in the same room and Khaleesi off leash! Of course, we still supervised their interactions, but the momentum was now flowing towards the probability that this cat could stay in our lives (though we had her sponsored by a rescue and listed for adoption). We joked that Kitty Kat would go through portals, as she would disappear and every place possible would be checked, no cat to be found. A fateful and synchronous afternoon, Kitty Kat found a portal and we had to leave the house....we'd have to leave them together (Khaleesi is a dog that rejected her crate). To our surprise and delight, we came home hours later to them cuddling on our bed! That was the moment we knew it was safe for Kitty Kat to stay. I was in disbelief, but my eyes forced my old belief out. Shortly after, we were happy foster failures.
As I look back now...there I was, new to the conscious and deliberate creating of life, and just by letting go and surrendering, I allowed the Universe to conspire for me. To line up everything in my life to make way for Kitty Kat. And as I chose to focus on the hope that Khaleesi could accept Kitty Kat and focused on and celebrated anything that supported that hope, and as I let go of anything that did not support that hope...momentum towards my desire built. It worked out.
Kitty Kat is teaching me so much about this Universe - animal consciousness and their relation to and agreements with humans, healing and well-being, energy, and more. I feel such a strong, unconditional, and joyful love for this cat- stronger and more evolved now than two years ago. What a lovely feeling to appreciate, and realize, a concept about cats and dogs and their agreements with humans. Dogs...many will put up with, and allow, the control that our egos place on our conditions. (Our dogs must behave a certain way, must do a certain trick for a reward. Often we get angry and withdraw our love when our dog doesn't act the way we think the dog should.) Most cats do not put up with our ego's need for control in that way. You get a cat kind of knowing that you've got to accept and love the cat the way that cat is. If ego steps in, cat steps away. A truly unconditional love (beyond the third dimension) forms between cats and humans. I have been learning to let go of my ego's tendencies- its need for control - with Khaleesi's guidance. An unexpected teacher for me, and I appreciate her. The unconditional love and bond is just as deep and expansive when you allow space for your dog. When you focus on high-vibration thoughts for a consistent period of time, your dog will likely begin to fall into the behavior you have been wanting to see, and surprise and delight you too. I have cats and Khaleesi to thank for assisting me in understanding this.
Why write this manifestation story?
How often do we focus on what we want from the place of feeling the absence of it? How often do we think about what we want to manifest but wonder why it is not here yet? What a wobble that is created in our vibrations when we focus on our desires and feel good- excitement, potential, anticipation and maybe expectation- but then focus on those desires not yet being here. In comes doubt, resistance, justifications, and disappointment.
So what if we turn our attention away from those not-yet manifested desires? What if we let go? What if we turn our attention towards what we have manifested? What if we feel the appreciation of what we manifested? How nice it is to look back and feel the fulfillment of a desire and the expansion it brought to our life experience!
I particularly love remembering this desire I manifested because it was so strong, but just as strong and for a while more active and tenacious was my belief that that particular desire - having a cat - was absolutely impossible. I appreciate this manifestation - the welcoming of Kitty Kat - especially for the reminder that if I can imagine it, it is possible! I am the creator of my life experience and I do so through alignment.
Thank you, Kitty Kat. Thank you Khaleesi. I also thank myself.
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